In a trance
I’ve been contemplating whether or not I wanted to share my experience with you all, but here goes nothing! My cousin and I have had these mushrooms for literally months now. I think since July or something. Anyway, if you know me irl, you know that I do smoke here and there and I’ve tried other things as well in college .. but this in now way means that I condone drug use. I just like to experience new things, so why not lol. This weekend was my cousins birthday and we thought it would be a great time to experience shrooms. Now, in preparation my boyfriend and I watched a documentary on mushrooms on viceland (actually extremely good, I suggest you watch if you’re going to try it or just want to be more informed). Ultimately it made me relax a little more because I thought it was going to be seeing sounds and tasting colors or having some crazy ass trip. So watching this made me feel okay with what I was about to embark on and not as scared about it. Sunday rolls around and we are done with brunch and we get back to the hotel and we decide to take the shrooms. I at first only took one, cause I’m a punk, and also didn’t know how much it was going to affect me. Then thirty minutes roll around and I’m like ……. Okay …… this is not working I feel nothing and see NOTHING! So I end up taking like 4 more stems. FYI these things taste like earth and just dirt (I guess I must like what earth taste like cause I didn’t actually mind it lol). After another 30 minutes I start maybe feeling it a little bit. I call James and tell him what I’ve done and he suggest that we record ourselves so we can put it on our podcast (it didn’t work I tried to and honestly we just kept fucking it up). But as I start to feel the effects of the mushrooms I feel like I’m going to throw up and my cousin tells me that, that is actually normal. At this point I’m like begging like please can I go throw up and she says no it makes you feel like that then you’re fine and I just suck it up lol. After a while (maybe like 20 minutes) I feel this just urge that came over my body and it just felt like love and I was super happy. My cousin and I we’re talking for a little bit before she fell asleep on me and I was left to trip by myself. It wasn’t her first rodeo so I think that whatever amount she had was obviously not enough? So she knocked out. Me on the other hand was as awake as an owl. I started listening to Astro World (and let me tell you, that album is great sober, but on mushrooms. WOW it was like I was in a whole other world!). I don’t know exactly why but being on mushrooms and looking at your phone is actually the weirdest experience and I just could not do it. James called me and was trying to talk to me and if you’re reading this right now, I am sorry again, but I could just not be on the phone. Or even really describe what I was going through at the moment. For some reason texting was a little bit better but only after I was already on the mushrooms for a little while. It was such a transic experience. I was stuck between beautiful colors and imaging these very creative scenarios in my head and also being here. I just wanted to listen to music and keep imagining these scenarios. I also felt the deep urge to tell people that I loved them and tell them that whatever stressors are in their life that they need to let go of but in a much beautiful, and much more insightful way. Unfortunately I just told them I loved them and nothing else cause I was overthinking and felt like I was being too intrusive on a Sunday night. I remember I also got a facetime call and it was James again telling me I looked like I was on shrooms and I remember thinking what does that look like? lol. Then he had suggested that I take a shower and lather up and it would feel amazing. So I did just that. While I was in the shower at this hotel all I could think about is wow. This looks super Japanese bathroom because of the way it was designed and I was just kept thinking, wow I’m in Japan lol. Anyways after I lathered up and layed in bed I just started listening to music and keep seeing beautiful visuals and colors until I fell asleep. Overall I loved this experience. I wish that my cousin or my boyfriend had been there and awake with me to experience it with someone else but maybe next time.
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